I grew up in Newcastle and came from a broken family. My parents split up when I was about 2 years old. I always felt less than other people and lacked self-confidence. Had a lot of self-doubt and didn’t think much of myself. So growing up for me, I tried to fit in with other people which led me to do a lot of people pleasing throughout my life.
So I had my first drink at about the age of 14 and instantly loved it. It gave me things I didn’t have, like confidence, and for the first time I felt equal to other people.My drinking led me to using drugs and I instantly loved the feeling they gave me also. It started out as a casual thing, like on weekends as I was working at the time. But slowly but surely the drugs started to take a hold of me. I’ve lost many jobs as a result of my drug use. My work ethic went out the window as I continued to use drugs, and my life started to become unmanageable.
I started pushing everyone away including my family. I lost my morals and values in life and couldn’t guarantee me behaviour while I was using. I spent a lot of time isolating from the world and only hung around people that were using drugs. That became the lifestyle I was living for a long time and I considered it to be normal. I had been living that lifestyle for so long that I didn’t know any better. I started doing crime and hanging around the wrong crowd. As a result I have been locked up a number of times. I could see that if I kept doing what I was doing, I would spend the rest of my life in and out of gaol. So something had to change.
I came to The Glen on the 27th of March, 2017. Which is also my birthday. I came to The Glen mentally, physically and spiritually broken, lost and confused in life and didn’t really know who I was. I didn’t really know what to expect, but I was happy to be out of gaol and given an opportunity to change my life. The counsellors and all the support networks I have received from The Glen have really played a big part in me changing my life. These support networks gave me the tools, knowledge, guidance, direction and the freedom I needed to get the most out of the program and myself. For the first time in my life, I am content with the person I am today. I can also see a future for myself clean and sober and in recovery.
I went in to the transition program about 5 months ago still a bit lost and unsure where I was heading in life. As I continued my journey in transition, my life started falling in to place. I started to surround myself with positive people and I started applying myself to the program fully. I started doing Drug and Alcohol Education sessions at schools to hundreds of school kids at a time and that really help boost my self-confidence. I also started getting involved in some community activities which I really enjoyed and helped build my passion for helping other people. As a result of that passion I decided to enrol in Tafe, and I just completed an Introduction Course to Community Services and Drugs and Alcohol. The first time in about 10 years I have been able to commit myself to something and actually complete it. I really enjoyed the course and has motivated me to start A Cert 4 in community services next year which I am really excited about.
Most importantly I have my family back in my life after pushing them away for almost 10 years. I had no idea how much of a transformation I would go through while in treatment here, but the man I have emerged as, is one I can be proud of. The debt of gratitude I owe to The Glen is one that can never be paid. I have now realised that my life is worth living, especially in recovery.